::onapia::

well actually

i think..

if you really want something

really really want it

you will find time

you will have the time you need..

hehehe.. jadi masalah gweee apa doong

keknya masalahnya di keinginan gwe yg ga strong enough

keinginan ku simple.. to sleep n hibernate in the arms of my dearest hubby all the time

huahahahahahah

eniwei.. yg gwe mao tuu

- ngeblog

- blajar masak „ mo kueh „ mo daily food juga yuukk

- merajut!

sementara itu deh..

can i do this?
will i succeed?

the happiness is within you

a dearest someone for me..once told me that..
dont depend your happiness with someone else…
biar kata juga lo kehilangan somebody
biar rasanya kerna itu mo matiy
lo tuh bisa happy
soalnya it’s within everybody
bwahahaha maksaaaaaaa berimmaaa

eniwei
thankyou for you yg udah mampir in my life for
a very shortwhile..you ignite the spirit within..

it’s like i waited my wholelife for that one night!!
pas abis..too bad..then i lost you..

ihiiiiiiiyy gwe bisa loohh romantis gerimiss

hadoooohhh
cape gue..
nyobain customize theme blog tumblr..makk
pdhl g seneng banget ama theme : phobic man„
trus gwe iseng gwe ganti2 eh pas balik lagi, ga bisa gitu tu theme„ huhuhu..

jadi ya udah lah nyerah gwe pake theme apaan aja..kek si dragonfly ini, smoga kapan2 bs lagi pake phobicman„ soale gwe seneng yg gloomy gloomy gitu, huehehe

niwei..mo crita..
kmrn jumat gwe ama bf meninjau salah satu alternatif our temporary home..
tu rumah mayan luas ya untuk ukuran harga yg dikasiy (btw gwe dimarahin ama bf gara2 gali infonya ngaco„ kmu memang galak beebb!tapi tambah demen malahan„kekeke)..
tu rumah tu punya sbh keluarga..yg nyokapnya dah meninggal, dulunya yang tinggal di rumah itu..sekeluarga, tp stlh merit pada cabs dari situ,
terakir2 yg tgl situ si nyokap ama anak terakirnya cowo…
skrg anaknya itu (mas2 yg kt temuin di sana) prefer ngekos deket tempat kerjanya..jadinya pen dikontrakin aja tu rumah..
tnyata barang2nya sama sekali blom diberesin..
masih full furniture lah..
what i notice from that visit is that, lots of pictures hanging on the wall..ada poto keluarga, dr pas masi kecil, trus ada poto merit nyokapnya, i guess ya.. soale tu poto dah jadul banget.. yah intinya the usual family room scene lah..
tp ga tw„
saat itu gwe jadi kepikir.. this is a classic example of human’s life cycle, you’re born, growing up, make a family, getting old and die…
yg mana bikin gwe feeling..oh dear god.. g blom ngapa2in, apa bekal gwe ketemu Allah..oh nooooooooooooooooooooo..
g pengen merasakan feeling itu lebih sering lagi..tp g sering lupa..apa g pajang foto elder ppl ya..
oh ya one more thing„ g jg jadi inget poems by Constantinos Cavafys (g baca di bukunya Coelho)„, bunyinya:

When you start on your journey to Ithaca,
then pray that the road is long,
full of adventure, full of knowledge.
Do not fear the Lestrygonians
and the Cyclopes and the angry Poseidon.
You will never meet such as these on your path,
if your thoughts remain lofty, if a fine emotion
touches your body and your spirit.
You will never meet the Lestrygonians,
the Cyclopes and the fierce Poseidon,
if you do not carry them within your soul,
if your soul does not raise them up before you.

Then pray that the road is long.
That the summer mornings are many,
that you will enter ports seen for the first time
with such pleasure, with such joy!
Stop at Phoenician markets,
and purchase fine merchandise,
mother-of-pearl and corals, amber and ebony,
and pleasurable perfumes of all kinds,
buy as many pleasurable perfumes as you can;
visit hosts of Egyptian cities,
to learn and learn from those who have knowledge.

Always keep Ithaca fixed in your mind.
to arrive there is your ultimate goal.
But do not hurry the voyage at all.
It is better to let it last for long years;
and even to anchor at the isle when you are old,
rich with all that you have gained on the way,
not expecting that Ithaca will offer you riches.

Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage.
Without her you would never have taken the road.
But she has nothing more to give you.

And if you find her poor, Ithaca has not defrauded you.
With the great wisdom you have gained, with so much experience,
you must surely have understood by then what Ithaca means.

—  Constantine Cavafy  (translated by Rae Dalven)

hyaaaaaaaaahhh

gwe demen banget ni puisi!! buat g ini slalu ngingetin gwe„ buat to live the most..and enjoy the journey„ 
no matter ithaca kek gimana ntar, yg penting gwe dah give effort to get there„ berusaha dan berdoa!! yayyyyy!!