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mobile text testing

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 08:17:37 +0700

can i do this?
will i succeed?

grimis mengundang

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 11:08:33 +0700

the happiness is within you

a dearest someone for me..once told me that..
dont depend your happiness with someone else…
biar kata juga lo kehilangan somebody
biar rasanya kerna itu mo matiy
lo tuh bisa happy
soalnya it’s within everybody
bwahahaha maksaaaaaaa berimmaaa

eniwei
thankyou for you yg udah mampir in my life for
a very shortwhile..you ignite the spirit within..

it’s like i waited my wholelife for that one night!!
pas abis..too bad..then i lost you..

ihiiiiiiiyy gwe bisa loohh romantis gerimiss

nyerah

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 20:12:47 +0700

hadoooohhh
cape gue..
nyobain customize theme blog tumblr..makk
pdhl g seneng banget ama theme : phobic man„
trus gwe iseng gwe ganti2 eh pas balik lagi, ga bisa gitu tu theme„ huhuhu..

jadi ya udah lah nyerah gwe pake theme apaan aja..kek si dragonfly ini, smoga kapan2 bs lagi pake phobicman„ soale gwe seneng yg gloomy gloomy gitu, huehehe

niwei..mo crita..
kmrn jumat gwe ama bf meninjau salah satu alternatif our temporary home..
tu rumah mayan luas ya untuk ukuran harga yg dikasiy (btw gwe dimarahin ama bf gara2 gali infonya ngaco„ kmu memang galak beebb!tapi tambah demen malahan„kekeke)..
tu rumah tu punya sbh keluarga..yg nyokapnya dah meninggal, dulunya yang tinggal di rumah itu..sekeluarga, tp stlh merit pada cabs dari situ,
terakir2 yg tgl situ si nyokap ama anak terakirnya cowo…
skrg anaknya itu (mas2 yg kt temuin di sana) prefer ngekos deket tempat kerjanya..jadinya pen dikontrakin aja tu rumah..
tnyata barang2nya sama sekali blom diberesin..
masih full furniture lah..
what i notice from that visit is that, lots of pictures hanging on the wall..ada poto keluarga, dr pas masi kecil, trus ada poto merit nyokapnya, i guess ya.. soale tu poto dah jadul banget.. yah intinya the usual family room scene lah..
tp ga tw„
saat itu gwe jadi kepikir.. this is a classic example of human’s life cycle, you’re born, growing up, make a family, getting old and die…
yg mana bikin gwe feeling..oh dear god.. g blom ngapa2in, apa bekal gwe ketemu Allah..oh nooooooooooooooooooooo..
g pengen merasakan feeling itu lebih sering lagi..tp g sering lupa..apa g pajang foto elder ppl ya..
oh ya one more thing„ g jg jadi inget poems by Constantinos Cavafys (g baca di bukunya Coelho)„, bunyinya:

ITHACA

When you start on your journey to Ithaca,
then pray that the road is long,
full of adventure, full of knowledge.
Do not fear the Lestrygonians
and the Cyclopes and the angry Poseidon.
You will never meet such as these on your path,
if your thoughts remain lofty, if a fine emotion
touches your body and your spirit.
You will never meet the Lestrygonians,
the Cyclopes and the fierce Poseidon,
if you do not carry them within your soul,
if your soul does not raise them up before you.

Then pray that the road is long.
That the summer mornings are many,
that you will enter ports seen for the first time
with such pleasure, with such joy!
Stop at Phoenician markets,
and purchase fine merchandise,
mother-of-pearl and corals, amber and ebony,
and pleasurable perfumes of all kinds,
buy as many pleasurable perfumes as you can;
visit hosts of Egyptian cities,
to learn and learn from those who have knowledge.

Always keep Ithaca fixed in your mind.
to arrive there is your ultimate goal.
But do not hurry the voyage at all.
It is better to let it last for long years;
and even to anchor at the isle when you are old,
rich with all that you have gained on the way,
not expecting that Ithaca will offer you riches.

Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage.
Without her you would never have taken the road.
But she has nothing more to give you.

And if you find her poor, Ithaca has not defrauded you.
With the great wisdom you have gained, with so much experience,
you must surely have understood by then what Ithaca means.

— Constantine Cavafy (translated by Rae Dalven)

hyaaaaaaaaahhh

gwe demen banget ni puisi!! buat g ini slalu ngingetin gwe„ buat to live the most..and enjoy the journey„
no matter ithaca kek gimana ntar, yg penting gwe dah give effort to get there„ berusaha dan berdoa!! yayyyyy!!

pengeennn bertualang lagi..naek kereta jauh bener„trus...

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 17:43:03 +0700

pengeennn bertualang lagi..naek kereta jauh bener„trus trekking menyusuri jalan2 yang menantang (bwakakaka padahal ga semenantang itu siyy„heueue)

mikir jelek

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 17:30:13 +0700

never think negatively about other ppl..
well at least, buat gwe ndiri..
secara karma does exist!! yes they do..

gwe mikir jelek about other ppl,
selalu loh balik ke diri gwe sndiri..
pdhl kadang2, it’s just sekelibatan gitu.. g ga maksud mikir jelek..
you know just..kadang2 spontan aja muncul pikiran ga oke itu..

contohnya..
ngeliat orang di jalan, lagi jerawatan..
g langsung kefokus disituu„aga2 ngeliatin terus getuuuuuuh
terus ya akirnya…

dan alhamdulillah karma does exist..
coz biasanya abis gwe spontan mikir gitu
langsung deh muncul jerawat kek orang yg gwe liat..

trus gwe pnah liat orang lagi buncit banget perutnya..trus g mikir..duh gwe keknya ga separah itu, untunglah!
eh ga taunya bis tu..besokannya nafsu gwe menggila..dan jadilah gwe buncit kek orang yang g pikirin tadi…. monyoooooooongg..
mati gaaak luuuuuuuuuuhh

tapi alhamdulillah deh ada yg aga2 karma gitu..bikin g jadi aware, dan jadi always see positive side of people (jiaaahhh!!)…

at least berusaha deeeeeeeeehhhh!!

dah lama ga ngumpul betiga! one to one mulu!! btw lagi benciii...

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 23:12:06 +0700

dah lama ga ngumpul betiga!

one to one mulu!!

btw lagi benciii sama blog gweeeee

live the way you want it

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 22:59:55 +0700

is it selfish to do it?

please set aside religion on this discussion, eh what i really mean is..there’s no question on choosing your religion and obeying what Allah said.. no..this post wont say a word on that (though i know it can not be separated from life, but you know what i mean la)….

i dont know is it becoz those romantic silly book of stensilan (baca: harlequin, wekekeke) or it’s inherently in me… I always think liberty should be put above all.. haha..the freedom to choose what you want to be.. even it means that you choose to live the way people you want it.. nah loh aga belibet gwe.. poinnya adalah it’s your choice.. it’s your life.. your risk..your consequences„ so to hell what people think..mereka mo mikir apa juga kan lo yg ngerasain..

ya saat ini gwe mikir kek gitu si..ga tw ntar2an gimana

halah ni posting ga mutu amat yak

bisan gwe lagi ngebela mati2an cara hidup gwe yg sesuka gwe..salahnya dimana sih!bwahahaha„padahal udah lost lots of things, masih teteeeeuup aja ngotot suka suka gwe..well there is a price for everything..

jiahh

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 17:16:46 +0700

jahh ga tau gwe„ cranky muluu bawaannya hari iniiiii hari iniiiiI ya sodara sodara i made mistake di sistem, ampe 2 kali benerin!! bete gwe„ apa yg terjadi padakuuuu i mean gwe biasa si bikin salah (hehe!) tapi ga mpe parah kek gini one of my frd used to say, always think..next time better! so you will always strive and hope for better outcomes tapinya.. other friend juga suka bilang, waktu elo ada di paling buruk.. the worst is yet to come.. jd ga usah deh mewek2 kelamaan haha dua view yang beda but still, bisa liat ko sisi positif dr msg2 positivenya.. oh how i love being positive!! hahaha.. ya well eniwei ga tw nih kenapa bs cranky gini.. dan apakah si ona bisa balik ga cranky lagiiiiiii sodara sodara? kita nantikan hari esok.. bsuk pengen jalan n beli mbok pecel yahud aaaaaaaaahhh

terwarnai

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 22:51:48 +0700

gwe.. dah setaun kerja di sini.. eh lebih deng.. n mpek sekarang masi terasa ada yg kurang.. masi gak maksimal.. organisasi where ive worked is so big that coordination is a hard thing to do.. kecewa .. asli kecewa…eh ama diri sendiri siy„ di sana sini.. selalu kepikir.. ini kan sebenernya bisa diimprove.. harusnya kan ga begini.. tp karena terlalu besar, terlalu ribet untuk ngelakuin..(baca: males, hix) gwe pernah baca di tipping point by malcolm gladwell (dunno spellnya bener pa engga).. ada sebuah crime yg kejadian di neighborhood yg cukup crowded (ard 30an orang).. di siang bolong.. yg mana orang2 lagi pada di rumah.. dan korbannya pdhl udah teriak teriak minta tolong.. duh gwe lupa istilahnya apa buat ngegambarin tu kejadian.. yg jelas it happened gara2 semua orang yg disana karena merasa orang lain akan do something, i.e nolongin si korban, maka ga do something.. nahhhh„ di tempat gwe keknya sama deh.. krn mikir ah paling yg laen yang akan benerin.. ga dibener benerin deh kondisi yg salah itu hadooh gwe ngomong ko keknya abstrak kalii.. padahal td di awal gwe tu pengen nulis.. bahwa gwe lagi takuut banget akan puas berada tempat ini puas ampe gwe ga pengen improve puas ampe gwe ga mao achieve apa apa lagi.. padahal tuhan.. i am still nothing.. giling sedih gwe ama keadaan gwe yg cinta status quo ini.. tp alhamdulillah gwe at least sadar gwe bgituh.. secara about a couple month ago, had this argument with my bf.. dan gwe masi mati2an bilang… lah apa salahnya dengan status quo„ dengan zona nyaman.. orang ga nyakitin sapa2„ orang ga bikin ribet sapa2.. but i was too stupid to realize.. that im wrecking myself… im gettting rotten.. bagai pisau tak diasah..padahal ive got so much more to give (jiaahh!), well not just for me but for others.. hahaha„ gwe off topic lagi… what im trying to say tadinya about kultur di tempat gwe yg perlu diimprove 1. iya understand semuanya perlu didokumentasi, tp dokumentasi ga berarti harus ngebunuhin tu pohon2 kan, kenapa sih ga bisa paperless.. iya tau gaptek, tp kan kalo masih bisa kerja masih bisa belajar kan..takes time siy, but show some effortt please 2. iya ngerti rapat itu perlu buat koordinasi, tapi harusnya bisa efisien kan, harusnya bisa ngomong tu the point dan ngegosipin orang dulu dan harusnya ga usah show off sok sok argumen yg malahan ga solutif tapi malah mementahkan semuanya.. kalo rapat mulu kapan kerjanya, mana lagi ngabisin duit buat snack2 itu lagi 3. he eh emang gwe sadar kita orang timur masih ada tata krama n stuff, tp ga usah gila hormat dong dan merasa bahwa atasan itu emang literally lebih atas dari bawahan.. gimana bisa orang (baca: bukan gw ya, secara gwe mah kurang oke skill competence nya, tp kalo gwe punya pndapat oke, pasti gwe share dah) kasih pendapat dengan jujur dan nyaman, kalo slalu di underpressure dan merasa dikecilkan„ kasian kan mereka… 4. betul kalo decision itu harus cepet diambil tapi jangan sembarangan take decision dong tanpa elo do proper research or study.. i mean.. one thing leads to another, and yes i know, the step you took now, either leads you to a deep well or a majestic stair.. itu pasti jadi main concern, tapi plis dong dipikirin juga orang2 yg terkait dengan keputusan yg lo buat, i mean, kalo itu emang buat hajat hidup orang banyak, tolong dong attribut individunya dicopot„is it so hard to do.. lah jadi panjang„ padahal gwe cuman pen bilang gwe takut dengan kultur ini.. takut berubah jadi seperti mereka gwe takut terwarnai gituuuuuuuu loohhh

scent..

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 22:30:50 +0700

first of all!!

kesal aku kesaaaaaaaalll„

koneksi im2 ini juelek buanget kalo peak hour gini (eh jem 10 malem gini peak bukan si, hehe sotoy gwe)

ya eniwei„ ive thought to write on this since this morning..

lately been trying to be a person who doesnt waste stuff, who tries to be efficient, meaning —> use all stuff that i have in my rooms which includes that body shop creamy thingy„ hmm i think it was a body lotion…

the thing is..when i use the liquid (it has changed into a rather liquid form instead of a creamy substance that it used to be, haha).. i smell his scent.. my old boyfriend’s, or my partner’s, or my former lover’s or whatever you called it..

it’s just amazing how a simple stuf like a body lotion can bring you a rush of memories.. the moments you spent with him.. when the world means nothing compared to him..

for a moment, i was taken aback.. never thought i could remember.. even the pain, it’s real… haha the drama queen is back..

yah well.. nice to realise im one of the person who is able to have her memories awaken by the scent…

ps: the reason i smell HIS scent when i use MY body shop is rather private.. one thousand rupiahs if you guess it right!haha!

disorder..

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 01:05:03 +0700

My life is a mess..

People would say „ is it reaaaaaaally??

But it’s true.. tried to deny it, even justify it.. but the truth always comes back..

Had once read this book.. a perfect mess : the hidden benefits of disorder.. but it’s just about how you do things.. it’s like how you arrange your stuff.. organize work and all that..

mine’s more of a disorder in all aspect

and it’s all because i like to procrast things, to delay it.. i am too confident that i’ll be able to finish it in time ..

that stupid confidence will eat me out„ i know and i dont want it to happen..

therefore„ i„ ona„ will make a pact to myself…

at this point i know im the that kind of person who wants all or nothing..

and now.. i choose all..

it is decided then„

a drastic measure is needed..

i will bring order to my life…

i will put my commitment to a test.. pray i will success

hahahah..

* semoga setelah kmrn sukses dg ngabisin selalu ngabisin makanan dan gak ingkar janji lagi„ yang ini juga bakal suksess!! first step, i will sleep at 12am and wakes up at 4 am.. eat breakfasts at 6.30am and lunches at 12pm fruit at 9am and 3 pm…. order order order „ starting from now„ call me ordamaniacs„ kyakakaka jayuz…

trying to write again...

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 11:18:14 +0700

ga masuk gwe hari ini.. sakit perut.. si amalya, nenek centil lt 2 yg suka begawul itu bilang kalo i always have problems with my stomache„ harus dibenerin pola makannya.. tp when i asked gimana caranya, doi bilang makan makaaaan makaaan.. lah kepriben.. yah well eniwei.. ga masuk bikin gwe contemplating..(though it’s like almost sering abis gwe lakuin tp ga da realnya, benciiiiiiiii akuu benciii) wat have i done this past 25 years.. not much not much at all„ and it makes me kinda sad.. kenapa gwe segitu pemalasnya nyari hakikat diri, when the answers is written everywhere.. i open my book of dreams…(you know.. one of those diary book where you write what you wants„ i have one too).. and dissapoints my self coz im barely fulfilling what i want in real life my problem is.. i know what i want, how to get it, but too lazy to do something about it.. does that mean i dont really want what i want..?but then..if i could just zero-in everything i want, then it means i want nothing.. uh oh this is dangerous… when you stop wanting something.. you stop living i guess… or we could see it this way.. ive got what i want… then it’s only a matter being grateful to Allah„ alhamdulillah.. but so many ppl always say you could do more..you could do better..you could reach higher..is that true?how do they know?why are they keep pushing?not that i mind being pushed, im just questioning whether this laziness of me is wrong… do living to our potential is an obligation? or it’s just the right where it’s up to us whether we want to exercise it or not.. but you know what.. no matter how hard i try to justify this laziness..i know something is wrong..which thank god i have that tiny witsy consience.. i lost lots of opportunity, missed lots of moments.. which actually i dont really care.. uh oh i recognize another problem..ignorance… wheww.. ignorance and lazziness..deadly combination nooooooooooooooooooooo lagh jadi kemana-mana when my point of writing is only to remind myself that i could be whatever i want..including a writer.. well at least a writer of my own faith.. * been too long in a cozy comfort place where i dont have to think, be, and deliver the best of me…

http://arisona-lb.blog.friendster.com/

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 21:45:00 +0700

http://arisona-lb.blog.friendster.com/:

blog lama eke di frensterrr… pas g cek„ lumayan banyak jugaa

dapet dari kokoooo„ lucuu..

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 16:04:00 +0700

dapet dari kokoooo„ lucuu..

upset

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 10:42:08 +0700

why cant we move on?

people makes mistakes..
either is a hugggeeee one or as insignificant as unpurposedly stepping someone’s toe in a bus..

why cant we move on?

this is for you who can not bury the hatchet…

why cant we simply shake hand..and forget..and move on!
why cant we just go back as we used to be..holding no grudge..

are you not satisfied enough you’ve ruined my life..
well..i have when i’ve ruined yours..
it’s been fair and square..
can’t you see that in your scoreboard?
what else?
what elseee?

can we just move on?
i need to collect my pieces..and it’s not possible with you being like that..

so let’s move on…

and we can be friends once again..
and we dont have to be tired avoiding each other..

Im tired..
I really do..

need distraction

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 15:35:00 +0700

hr ini.. starting ard 2 pm..

i felt it„

sumthing contracted..

inside me„

halahh..

intinya gwe sakit perutt.. gila yaa.. baru sekali dua kali gwe ngerasain yg namanya sakit perut cewe tu kaya gini.. arggghhh.. asli ga bisa ngapa2 in padahal masi jam kerja.. padahal banyak yg pen gwe lakuin…

yawda g pengen share aja ni„ the first few tips yg gwe dapet di internet ..

just follow the link:

http://usa.kaskus.us/showthread.php?t=1081286

heheh males gwe elaborate..

tp poinnya siy for me.. gwe males minum obat2an gituw„bukannya gara2 takut knapa2„ tp..err.. ya males aja.. ntah kenapa padahal gwe paling seneng tu minum obat.. hahaha..

obat yg paling cucok buat gwe ya distraction itu„ jatohnya g ngumpet di toilet, maen games yg di hape„ bosan itu, ya maen fb, ato gak maen fb, hahaha.. ko ga da yg produktif yhaaaaa…

Van Gogh’s Sunflower pssstt„ there’s a sign of...

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 00:30:00 +0700

Van Gogh’s Sunflower

pssstt„

there’s a sign of my tiny itsy bitsy tear when i saw the real one in national gallery… halah na naa… norak de ah„ padahal di perpus FE juga ada copy nya.. wonder if they still hung the painting there.. when i was a freshmen„ dg bodohnya gwe bertanya ama abang perpus…

“asli tu pak?”…kubertanya sambil menunjuk sunflower’s copy yg digantung di lt.1 perpus FEUI

“asli”…kata bapak2 perpus

“ooo”… kataku sambil mengangguk-angguk

STUPPPPPPPYYYYYY!!!

silly cocroachy/ratsy poem

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 00:06:00 +0700

made this poem

when I bath in foams

and cocroach friends roam

while blackish dreams moan

in a city where everybody drones

——

drank the sluggish slush

streamin down with the celery mush

I hush„

while I flush

all those rotten rats who gushed

* come visit my room to ~~see~~ feel the presence of barney, steve, melody, and mickey…they’re my unseen friends though unwelcome also..hehe

losing car alarm can lead to addition of body fat

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 23:13:39 +0700

this happened on thursday, 23 okt 08..
kalo ga salah ya„ hehe apa rebo?
kamis deh kalo ga salah„ makkk malem jum’at looh.. haha

okay„ background story:

bunga„, current colleague slash one of dearest friend, was on standby mode„
the institution got problem, she’s part of the team that has to solve it…
while her bosses was on meeting outside the office..
she needed to stand ready „ ta elah.. eniwei she had to be in the office.. alone.. without no one.. kan kasiaaaaaaann.. mana dealing room sepiiiy„ agag gelap, so when she asked me to accompany her, I said yes..

the story:

the plan was„ I returned ke kosan dulu, bistu jem 7an balik ke kantor..
di jalan balik pulang, g dengan positif berpikir„ nanti later this week i will exercise, i miss exercising„ haha ternyata bisa juga gwe kangen exercising..

nah pas jam 7 gw mo balik ke kantor ituw dari kosan, gw agag buru2.. miaww2 ..n I kind lost alarm mobil gwe.. itu loh alarm yg kalo dipencet pencet bisa buka kunci mobil.. hehe..

pas dr parkiran kos ke kosan si ga da masalah, I remember I had it, secara bunyi tuit tuit ko pas gwe kunci mobil
gwe pikir it’s no problem, in my mind, buka pake kunci manual pun bisa, n di rumah juga ada ko sparenya..
tapiii hix„ pas gwe buka kunci manual, teruuuusss bunyiiii… toet toet toet toet„ hixx..membahana di kegelapan malam..

hyaaaaaaaaa…buru2 lah gwe tutup lagi tu pintu mobil
untungnya kek gitu tu cuma slama kira2 10 detik doang..tp mayan lah bikin keributan
krn g penasaran, g coba lagi..think there will be any difference, ngoek same aje„
dg muka kesal„ im heading baack to kosan mencoba mencari tu alarm..
pas g mo jalan balik ke kosan, tu masi bunyi alarm gitu kan..
trus booooo..gwe diteriakin lohh ama istrinya yg jaga parkiran.. indistinct shout sih..tp definitely a yell..mungkin g disangka maling apa yaaaa.. haha..tp ga lama alarmnya mati..
trus g bilang g mo cari di kosan dulu.. tp tetep ga adaaaa…hix„

walhasil g ke kantor pake taxi.. huwee dapetnya lama lagi „ n gwe pake sendal emak2 yg high heel gitu coz gwe pikir mo pake mobil„ nah ini pas ujan beceeekk.. susah bener jalannya.. nguik2.. trus krn gwe bete..
larilah aku dg taxi buat mampir sebentar ke toko roti n toko kopi di sebud building dengan alasan i need some relaxing items„ hahaha tambahlah gendut akuu„ miss exercising apaan tuh naaaaaa….

huah ngantuk„ suppose ada crita tambahan ttg the ghosts of dealing room, tp yawda la sama ga pentingnya„

for book lover --> www.goodreads.com

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 12:37:00 +0700

for book lover --> www.goodreads.com:

kek fs or facebook„ tp isinya ttg bukuuuuu nyammm